Ashley: U-Turn to God

The beginning of my journey at Faith Farm started in September 2011. This was, in fact, my second time here at Faith Farm. My first time coming into the program was in January 2007, when the women’s program was in Okeechobee. I left the program after about 4 months, thinking that I had it all figured out. I thought I knew what I was doing. I believed Faith Farm was NOT going to teach me anything else I did not already know. I had developed a relationship with the Lord, and I thought I was ready. So I left.

I managed to stay sober for about 5 or 6 months. Before I knew it, I was back to my old habits again, seemingly worse than ever before. It took a few years, but I finally swallowed my pride and asked to come back to Faith Farm. I was allowed to come back.

This has not been an easy journey. I have grown emotionally. I have grown spiritually. And thanks to our wonderful chefs, I have grown physically! I have had to learn responsibility, organization, and how to cope and deal with every situation. I came to realize that, along with numbing the bad feelings, I numbed the good as well. So, I have had to re-learn many things.

I have learned to pray instead of worry. I have learned to lean on God instead of leaning on man. It has been a process in which I have had to change, and sometimes change hurts. Change makes us uncomfortable. However, with the help of the staff here and my extremely supportive family, the good Lord has gotten me through. I owe a great deal of gratitude to my mother and my grandfather who have refused to give up on me.

I am blessed to have a God who loves me infinitely. Because of Him, I was not only able to come back to Faith Farm, but I stand here as a graduate today. I owe everything I am, everything I have become, and everything I ever will be to the grace of God. I WAS an alcoholic. I WAS a drug addict. With God, I am a conqueror. Now, I HAVE overcome.

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