I avoided His presence in my life for 30 years; living off the flesh and doing what I wanted to do for a very long time. The whole time, I knew that my true higher power was Jesus Christ and the Lord, our Father. I was finally beaten down enough to where I was willing to accept that fact and do whatever it took to bring me here today.
Through the instruction I received here at Faith Farm from staff and students, I’m able to make those adjustments and continue to do the Lord’s will; remove myself from my own will and do what He wants me to do. I still have a long way to go. I feel I still have a lot to learn in the ministry and in the Word.
Faith Farm has given me so much, from the clothes on my back, to the food in my stomach, to the roof over my head. It’s an amazing, chaotic, wonderful place to be if you’re willing to embrace it and let go of your old ways and embrace the new. Receive all the gifts that are available to us here, because they are plentiful.
Coming into the program, you’re going to have challenges. You’re going to have things that are going to try to pull you back to where you were. Just try to remove yourself from those situations, seek counsel, and ask questions. Those around you will lift you up out of those dark times.
I lost my father to his addiction of alcoholism. I had done a year of sobriety, and I had stopped communication with him because my sponsor told me that it would weaken my walk. I wasn’t able to communicate with him for that year. A week after I got my chip of sobriety, he took his life through suicide from alcoholism. I kind of went off the deep end, and that’s what brought me here.
For 5 years, I was just running amuck. I wanted to meet him and I wanted to see him, but I didn’t want to die like he did. I do what I do in remembrance of him. I carry him in my Bible with me, in my heart daily and I talk with him all the time now. That was one of my last walls I had to climb over to get here. I was to get over that and realize that he still loves me, and I still love him.