I thank God for allowing me the opportunity to even be here, because in my eyes, I should be dead. I shouldn’t even be allowed to live after the way I’ve acted for forty-eight years. I was being a mean person. I was a selfish person.
On the bus ride down to Florida from Tennessee, I realized that I was hurt and broken, exhausted and completely at the “end of my rope.” I was totally ready for a change and that change was to get to know God personally and to begin a relationship with Him. God was not a new concept for me. As a child, I was raised in the church. Although I knew about God, I didn’t know Him personally. The only time I turned to God was when I was in trouble and looking for a way out. I figured I was hell-bound anyway.
After being at Faith Farm a few days, I started praying and reading my Bible. Eventually, I got this calmness about me that I’d never had. I had a different attitude about things and my outlook on life started changing. Soon, everyday became a good day, because it gave me an opportunity to do better than I did the day before. I thought it was all me back in the days, but it’s not. It’s about Him and doing His will. There’s one thing that I have learned since I’ve been here; that’s trust in Him. He has gotten me to where I am today.