My parents got divorced at a very young age, and I know that this had a profound effect on my emotional state.
Growing up, I was an athlete. I realize now that I used sports as a means to not deal with the issues or emotions that were affecting me. I also realize that I was very obsessive compulsive in my behavior. The positive is that this allowed me to get a college education and play college ball, but it was also the fuel to my addiction. It says in 1 Peter 5:8;
Be sober; be vigilant; because your adversary the devil walks about like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour.
My addiction began in its roots as I was introduced to music; as I was introduced to the electronic music scene. In the music scene, I found myself abusing drugs such as ecstasy, LSD, GHB, and cocaine. These drugs, combined with my obsessive-compulsive behavior and my addiction to hard liquor, soon became a destructive combination. I would soon myself consumed by the Miami Beach nightclub scene and the underground music festivals.
This hardcore drug scene left me with a massive addiction to cocaine and alcohol. I was on a deep, dark path to self-destruction. This glamorous social lifestyle soon drove me to a place of solitude, isolation, and depression. I would suffer the consequences of losing functionality and losing six great jobs in the past ten years.
My addiction was severe. I became the addict with binges that almost caused me to go blind in my left eye. I became the addict who completely passed out behind the wheel of a driving car, barely escaping death. I became the addict who took a butcher knife six inches from my heart playing with suicide. I became the addict who could no longer fight this battle, one night taking all the pills in my house just to not wake up. I lied, I cheated, I stole and I hurt many people, especially those who cared most for me-my family.
Faith Farm is truly a work of God, and I am eternally grateful for having come to this place. This place taught me so much about myself, about the flaws that I had in me and it taught me to humble myself. I remember those calls I made to the intake office for three weeks trying to get in here. I remember after being on a two-day binge, being told, “Do you have any Christian music around?” I didn’t know what that meant at the time, and I didn’t think the intake counselor was serious. Now, I know that we’re called to worship God. That’s the purpose of our lives. Our lives are to worship the Man, the Being and the Existence that sent me here.
UPDATE: Daniel now runs the Boca House, a halfway house in Boca Raton, Florida, for men out of recovery. Daniel was one of our guest speakers at our annual Homecoming celebration on February 9, 2014. On March 5th, Daniel was a guest on the Boomer Times Radio Show to share his story. Daniel’s desire is to be in ministry.