I found comfort in the numbing effects of methamphetamine. Within in a year, I was on the streets, selling to live and living to stay high. I alienated myself away from my family and friends, and I surrounded myself with drugs, money and guns. I had become an IV user and a drug dealer. To top it off, I was lured into my Prince Charming’s arms, under the protective covering of a con artist. I was soon exposed to rage, jealousy, and control I had never known before… threats to harm me and those I loved, if I were to leave him. Soon, I was isolated from everyone and kept under constant watch. I was broken down into a person I didn’t even know. I lost control of myself, and I was being controlled by someone else.
With the sound of the loud crack of the front door breaking in by the sheriff’s department, my thoughts were, “This is all over.” On my way to jail, I ingested a lethal amount of meth and cocaine. Shortly after they placed me in the cell, I overdosed. I was rushed to the emergency room. I don’t remember much, but the doctors and police were stunned when there were no signs of drugs in my stomach. I look back now, and I realize I was not arrested that day, I was rescued.
I thank God for Faith Farm every day. The decision to come here was the best decision I have made. It was life or death, and Jesus calls on us to choose life. Faith Farm helped me restore my mind, body, and soul. I rededicated my life to Jesus as my Lord and Savior. I was baptized here (at Faith Farm). Although at first, I didn’t understand why everyone was raising their hands and praising God, I learned that it’s all worship… and it feels good to worship God. I am happier than I have been my whole life. I have that real true peace inside my heart that only comes from God. I know that I have a Heavenly Father who is always watching over me. For the new students, I encourage you stay. It takes time to change, especially to change the way we think.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths.